I AM FALLING .....

I'm falling into.....
I'm falling into memories of you,and things we used to do,
The first day i saw you,
The first day i spoke to you,
The first day we spent together,
The first day i kissed you,
The first day i hugged you...


Looking back at all ...seems so far...so far away.....
That first hug,i still remember the warmth of it,
But i never knew dat it's gonna be the first and last..
You were right in front of my eyes,in my arms,
Your eyes wide open,very peacefully glancing at me,
But deep inside der was a storm,a echo for help
Asking me to help ppl,asking me to save dem,
There was this pleasant smile on ur face,
But that was jus a fake,
You were trying to make me feel comfort,
You were so silent,but ur silence has said so many things unspoken....


I thought i would be late for few mins,was stuck in sm work,
I wanted you to wait for me coz i wanted to see ur pretty face wid a blend of anger,
But i never knew dat u r gonna make me wait for a life time ,
I never knew dat i was gonna see u last time on dat day..


I've Seen....
Ppl screaming,shouting,crying for help,
PPl madly searching for der loved once,
Ppl struggling between life and death,
Ppl running away for the soul life,
That blast..it has taken too many lives,made too many lives hell....


You..
You were der rescuing a kid,widout da fear for ur life,
You din scared of nytin,u jus heard ppl crying for help,
You saved dem instead you gave ur life ,
You gave your life....
Finally...
In my arms,lying calm....silent...peacefull...
I've broken,I've broken,
I've been crying my heart out....i got dust for tears....


I'm falling into memories of you,
Looking back at all, seems so far.....so far away,


Your memories are still fresh wid me...
For da rest of da world you are dead,but for me you are still alive in my heart..
Still alive in my heart........

CAN'T LIVE WIDOUT U !!!!

Hey baby .....
don't say u wanna leave me, i can't stay without you,
don't say you've never loved me even for a min,
don't make me believe , it was a sweetest play god has ever played wid nyone,
hey baby...
i can't live widout you,
i know u can lie prettywell,u said u din loved me..
but i could see love for me in ur pretty eyes,
u said u never wanna c me again n left me alone,
i was watching u all da way while u leaving, hoping dat u would come back !!!
hey baby...
how could u say,u don wanna c me again,how could u say it was jus a play,
why were u so happy wen u were near to me,
why were u blushing wen u were in my arms,
why were u walking wid me widout knowing da destiny,
why did u felt it was so right wateva v did,why does it look so stupid for u now....
hey baby...
why m i still believing in dis false truth,dat u are my love,
why m still believing dat u need me,
why m i still believing dat ur heart beats for me,
why m i still believing dat ur eyes searches for me in a croud,
why m still trying to help u out wen u said u've got smone to help u...
hey baby...
seasons passed away...
but m stilll waitin for u,
my feelings for u are still fresh,
dis is wen i realised u are my life,my luv,my hope,
don leave me baby,i know u luv me,
i wanna hold ur hand forever,
i wanna luv u longer,
cant live widout u baby....
cant live widout u......
cant live....!!!

"FOR DA LUV OF MY BEST BUDDY ON DA EARTH"

On one Christmas night.........

every thing was same,snow fall jus smells lyk before,da same old sweet Christmas songs....

but it was not same lyk da years before,coz m feeling lonely now....

puppy angels n little kittens are playing very happily in da heaven.....

but i couldn't take part in dat happiness ny more....

i was sitting alone gazing into da dark...

Goddess of heaven come to me n asked me.....

oh my poor puppy lill angel.....

"I was always wanted to know
if u were to meet the world's
most beautiful person,what would she be like???????"

I jus looked at her face once,n pointed my finger silently to da person sitting calm in her garden on da earth.....

da most beautiful person need not be a very wealthy one,she need not give up all her jewels jus to make a belt for me,she need not struggle jus to make a perfect room for me.....she should be jus like my master on earth,who gave me space in her heart....

I remember dat day,dat pain and panic

da fear n desperation....

I remember not wanting to die,n trying to hold on..

n i remember dat warmth in dat hug,dat soft hands picking me even so gently....

she took a great care of me,she tried so hard to make me alive...

she loved me like any thing....

one fine day i was absolutely fine wid good health...

after dat we played a lot,every day was a new sense of joy...

every morning i was waiting near her bed very patiently for her to open her eyes,n take me for morning walk....

every night i was waiting for her to come home n take me to garden,where we both had wonderful nights playing together....

last Christmas she got a red belt for me...dat Christmas was wonderful......

But dat yesterday is no more now.....

sometimes wen i sit quiet lookin at earth...

Isee dat my master sometimes forgets dat im not alive n she talks wid me,sometimes even she searches for me in da garden n wen she got to her sences back dat m nomore,der wouldn't be no more words on her soft pink lips,i could just see a silent tear streaming down her cheak....

As i sit in those moments of quiet,

wen sadness invades me,

I remember dat "yesterday" which is no more.....

I remember my master who is living wid my memories on da earth...

Oh my goddess....

on dis Christmas eve i have a wish....

cant i get back to my home on da earth..cant i get back to my master...cant i get back to dat sweet "yesterday"

My master is da beautiful person on dis earth.......

look at her,shez holding a white belt in her hands n silently standing at my grave...

cant i get back to my home.....I cant stay in dis heaven ny more....

widout my master even dis heaven looks like a hell for me...

i don need all these joys in heaven...i jus need dat simple hug of my master....

cant i get back to my home.....

CANT I?????

"WHY!!!!!!!!!!!!!"

When im stting alone so many things go into my head,i can never sit idle,so many doubts,so many questions,Why do i always have so many questions to ask??let me tell u ppl some silly questions n doubts i have......

Why do children get only scary dreams?????why is dat devil in their dreams looks very scary???why cant it look sexy??Why does that devil always eat ppl in their dreams??why cant it have something like kurkure or corneto???why only non-vegitarian devils come into dreams??why cant a vegitarian devil??

Why do ppl get scared by da darkness of night though they love black colour???why cant they love darkness of night??

why do ppl get dark complection wen they rome in bright sun light??why cant they become white when they go out in moon light???

why do ppl call their girl friends as sweet heart,when they never tasted their heart??

why do ppl have candle light dinners??though they have the ability to pay the current bill...

why does my teddy bear sits only at one place??why cant stand like ny other bears??

why does my teddy bear stares at me for such a long time??why can't it speak out n says it has got a crush on me??

why do ppl wear spectacle's' knowing dat they have got sight only in one eye???why cant they wear spectacle(which has got only one galss for the eye which is not properly functioning)???

why does a lecturer takes up a class knowing that no one is listening to her??why does she disturbs a girl who is happily sleeping at da last bench??when dat girl is no more disturbing da class..

why does a lecturer sends out a student saying shez disturbing da class jus bcoz shez talking to da person next to her??why cant we send out a lecturer when shez disturbing da whole calss wid her lesson???

why does exam paper has got only questions??why cant we write questions in anser sheet??

why do dis news channels got only news??why cant they telicast something other dan news??why will they name every shit as news??

why is da word life is so short??but why do ppl take it very seriously??

why do these celebrities always caught up with some news??cant they stay at home??

why do ppl have so many questions,knowing dat they cant have da answers???

why do we call a chemical solutions as solution when they has got no problems at all??

why do ppl have itching to know every shit thing on dis earth,knowing dat ders ntg to do wid dat matter...

why cant any one answer my questions??

why does our respiratory sys,nervous sys works 24/7???who willl pay their salary???what about their insentives??

why does dis word WHY creates such a nonscence???why do ppl get scared wid WHY??

why are u ppl still reading dis when i already mentioned it as 'silly' at da beginning itself??? dont u ppl got brains???

"TRUE FRIENDS......."

Have u ever know,u've never searched for ur true frens
they will jus come into ur way.....
Have u ever know,they r da ones u'll remember first
wen u wake up in da morning......
Have u ever know,they r da ones u'll meet first
at da beginning of da day....
Have u ever know,they r da ones listen to u very patiently
even wen u talk ny shit on dis earth.....
Have u ever know,ur eyes will search for dem
eagerly even in a big crowd.....
Have u ever know,wen u C dem,ur heart will feel lyk
some missing pieces of ur lyf has come in to ur way.....
Have u ever know,they are da ones wid whoom u can share
ur past,present and future.....
Have u ever know,they r da ones will take part
in ur happyness wid a gr8 joy.....
Have u ever know,they r da ones will give u a shoulder to cry
without asking for a reason......
Have u ever know,they r da ones made ur lyf wonderfull
wid da flowers of gr8joy...
Have u ever know,u jus go by their suggestion
widout re thinking about it....
Have u ever know,u just trust dem
like ur shadow.......

Have u ever know,they will never leave u
even though u leave dem.......
Have u ever know,they r da ones u'll meet first in a day
n they r da ones u'll leave last at da end of da day...
Have u ever know,wen they leave u at da end of da day
pieces of ur heart still miss dem a lot.........

U need not search for ur true frens,they will come into ur way...They will never ask you reasons for being with U and they will never search for reasons to leave U......
They will be with u forever.........

"MY HEART SAYS......."

I thought i could be fine
when i left you behind
jus as da wind blowing through da leaves in a sunny morning...

Thought ill never miss you again
thought i could be fine
jus like having a plain glass of water....

Thought ill never remember you again
thought its so easy to forget you
jus like a scratch on my hand....

BUT.....

I was so wrong....i couldn't be fine any more widout u..
I realised...
I can never stop missing U
I can never stop loving U
I can never forget U
Cried out a river for u,tried so hard to forget U..

Rolled my tears all da way in my room
till da pictures of ur smile vanished from my eyes
hoping dat da pictures captured by my eyes will fade away.....
I was stabbing my head on da wall whole day
to forget da pain of being apart from U....

FINALLY......

It was no more remained as a scratch on my hand
It just remained as a scratch on my heart..............

"A REASON?????????"

Just give me a reason to hate U

coz i cant take it ny more,

this feeling of being with you every day & night....

Just give me a reason to forget U

coz its killing me inside slowly

jus thinking about ur smile every now n den

everytime u leave da room m fading lyk a rose beaten by da storm

though we go in seperate ways,never stopped dreaming of u........

Jus give me a reason to run away from U

coz m gonna need u more n more eachday,more dan da words can say

i don want to be standing here alone

waitnig for u to come home to me,when i know it will never be....

Jus give me a reason to stop loving U

coz it hurts me so much.....

Love was never easy.....

But leaving you was so hard......

ONE SILENT TEAR.......

Tears,idle tears,know not what they mean,
tears from the depth of some divine despair...
rise in the heart,and gather in the eyes,
in looking on the happy autumn fields
and thinking of the days that are no more.....

I can hear myself cry,but nobody can
i look up as a tears rolls slowly down my cheek
i think about the better days &
wonder if i would feel that way again.....

The tears fall,they are so easy to wipe off into my sleeve,
but how do i erase the strain from my heart??

Silent tears stream down my face,
with each tear the pain only grows deeper
i squeeze my eyes shut tight,hoping they will go away,
but it only makes more spill out.....
cried, i broken like a bird where wings are clipped ,cant escape.....

I gazed at you,looking into those eyes,hoping to understand....
why you've said those things you did
i wonder for a moment,if this is all a dream
if i could wakeup in the morning.....

What was meant to be forever is breaking all apart
what was meant to be forever left the hole in my sole

Too late for tears,no time to be confused
i realised its just the echo of my silent song.....

One day iam gonna forget your name
and one sweet day,you are gonna drown in my lost pain.......

"CAN YOU FORGIVE ME AGAIN???"

First time ever when you are around me,
i dont know that someday we will become so close,

Captured me with a single smile,one true smile,
by the routes of trust n luv,had best time together,
hours passed like seconds,days like minutes,
everything is over within a moment,
it was like a sweetest dream i ever had,
left me with a tear,one true tear..............

It was the last time when we were walking together,
causing the deep silence,it was like the silence beofore the storm,
couldnt utter even a single word,smiles on our face last the way,
just had the last walk together,leaving the foot prints behind.....

Seems every time when im yelling at you,
you are smiling right on my face,uve forgiven me,
i was so close to you,so couldnt bare even if a single thing goes wrong,
that day i heard the words comming out from my mouth again,
stopped talking with you,but couldnt stop my mind,
lost you in a single heartbeat,badly missing you in my thoughts n dreams,
lost my will,couldnt get it back untill i had a word with you again,

If we would go again all the way from the begining,
i would try to change the things that killed our friendship.

Can you forgive me again???
i dont know what i said ,but i din't mean to hurt you,
it hurts so much to hurt you,
this time you were neither smiling at me,nor yelling,
you were silently broken.....silently broken....

Can you forgive me again???you are my one true friend..
wanna be with you longer,i never meant to hurt you...

Can you forgive me again???